HI everyone!

I just wanted to pop on here and let you know where I'm at mentally and physically with my health. 3 months ago I was in a tough spot, and prior was maybe the worst weeks of my life. And while I won't reflect on that here, I've come a long fucking way and am doing so much better.

Physically, I have no symptoms or signs of anything out of order anymore. I didn't even need to get on medications. (In reality, neither of my insurances would allow me to get it. So I had to switch up things in my diet. And it worked! Sidenote: Fuck the US healthcare system. It's fucking garbage.)

Anyways! Mentally, there are still little moments of doubt or fear (classic anxiety disorder moment lol), but I've come to accept those and move on. On top of that, I've made a rapid return to gaining. I've been eating much more whole foods and staying away from processed foods. Even my gainer shakes are chocked full of vitamins, fiber, fruit, and healthy fats! (Thank god for avocado oil!) I'm actually almost 350lbs (346lbs! nearly back to my heaviest!)...which is crazy to think that I thought 5 months ago I'd have to give up that part of me entirely. So I'm happy to be doing it in the most healthiest way possible and still be able to hold onto an integral part of my identity.

With writing, my mind has been chocked full of horny fattening ideas. And now that I'm actually working through this irrational harmful shame loop, I feel a deep sense of connection back to writing. I just want to write big blobby cum-filled furries. I want to write myself being a big blobby cum-filled lion!

I think I want to write more of myself into my stories, rather than making up new OC's. I also really want to write a few characters (Wolf and Diane, Haru and Legoshi, and of course, Nick Wilde and Judy). But that may be later. I really want to focus on myself and push back against the shame I was brought up feeling about being a fat fur and being fat, and I think writing as myself or in the perspective of my fursona will allow myself to further deconstruct those harmful mindsets.

But overall, I'm doing really well. I'm fatter than I've ever been, I'm in therapy again, and I'm making sure I am giving myself the life that I want.

i also just wanted to say thank you to those who helped me out for the past 5 months.  Malex, Sy,  Meka1066 and  Tall_Lucario everyone in the discord servers who supported me: THANK YOU <3 <3. I don't know where I would be without you fat fucks <3

Hopefully you'll be seeing a story from me soon! Been wanting to write up some very horny ideas. <3

Love you all,
Chamellow